[10] the consuming obsession
I have a simple goal for 2025 which is to address my short-form content obsession, read vastly and write vividly. The underlying goal is to stop mindless consumption, which is hard to rewire my brain after years of exposing myself to endless content. I want to consume something deeply, obsessively, like writing or reading every day. I used to be able to read a book a day. I kid you not. My 13-year-old brain was insane. She would be disappointed in me lol. But nonetheless, you have to go through something to appreciate other things. Now I appreciate the conscious decision I made, and want to continue making the right decision despite the outcome. The consuming obsession made me realize that I cannot be left alone with my thoughts, which is bad, actually. My spotify listening was 75k last year. No wonder I felt drained at night. My mind is constantly moving and overstimulated. If this is not an obsession, I don't know what it is.
Instead of short-form contents, I want to focus more on film or documentaries, mainly a long-form contents. I watched Our Ocean and loved it. Also, Philomena Cunk's amazing show, and Anthony Bourdain's old shows I found on YouTube. I also watched a lot of The Masterchef Australia and daydreamed about cooking effortlessly like that. It's a fun obsession that doesn't fry my brain or sting my eyes.
January is a trial month,
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