[29] I don't have energy to create
I have consume enough. I think. Which means I should be able to create something. Now that's a different topic. I have read and watched enough. I observed a lot of things. But at the end of the day, I'm too tired, too overwhelmed to start making cool project. Do I need to make it cool? Over the top, unique? My mind spiral a lot when I start thinking. Instead of starting the project, I got chickened out by the thought that it will not like what I've imagine. Expectation. Pressure. Even when I'm alone.
Now I see where is the problem. Perfectionism. Ah yes, my old nemesis. A few days ago I started learning book binding. I sew my first text block. It was crooked, wonky even. But I understood the basic. So I sew another text block. Again, wonky. Nah, did it matter? I think I know the issue and gonna fix it for the next text block. It wasn't a big deal. I made something and it was worth of celebrating.
mistakes before perfection,
reesa