confession of a night owl
on yearning for a good night sleep & a few updates
Diary:
I have a trouble sleeping early. My eyes refuse to close and rest itself after the constant expose of blue lights. Reminiscence of my past, my old workplace used to have a limited parking spaces. So I forced myself to adhere to a strict sleeping routine and save myself from feeling miserable in the morning. One part because I'm bad at parallel parking, arriving early allowed me to choose my own parking spot and feeling less nervous of my skill. But now I have a different job, writing at home mostly, still trying to make something for myself. That's how I slowly having trouble of my sleeping schedule.
I have more time contemplating, daydreaming, overthinking, spiraling, which are equally as bad. I'm thinking about plotline during chores, about dialogues while feeding my cats. It's like my brain has no capacity to shut itself no matter what I do. At night, the problem persists. I make it like a miserable thing to endure but not really. I have a space to process my emotion, structure my thinking, weaving it into stories and characters interactions.
I write at night, mostly. Sometimes I write after lunch, only when the weather is bearable aka not too hot for this seasian. Despite having a desk fan right in front of my face, the wind is just pure heat. I'll be sweating in minutes. Nighttime is nice. Amazing even. Sometimes this land is blessed with rain. I have my own natural asmr sound for writing. Also if it's raining too much, I'm worried for the incoming flood around the city. I don't really consider myself as a night owl since my own decision lead me to this, but it fit the meaning and I guess, I am now.
Currently, I'm working on a few things to reduce this sleep problem like reading political book before sleep (I swear on this), listen to asmr, drink hot beverages, take a warm shower and stare at the ceiling with empty mind. Naturally sometimes it works, sometimes not. I will be wide awake, blinking at 1 am, not knowing what to do while waiting for the best sleep to happen.
Updates
Musings:
I have been wanting to share my short story for a while. I believe in showing to the public will increase the surface area of your luck. No calculation involves here hehe. Besides, I want to try something new with this blog. I learnt a lot from my old blog and this new ground will flourish once more with my experiments. I love archiving things and leaving some dust on this dying internet space. AI can't take that from me.
Reading Log:
The Song We Left Unfinished by Aiyssia ✅
Get Them Back! by Farhah Dhamirah ✅
Tuan Direktur by Hamka (110/144)🔖
The Snows of Kilimanjaro by Ernest Hemingway (start)
Shows:
Frieren Season 2
My Dearest (kdrama)
Hirugao (jdrama)
Music:
Waiting for Olivia Rodrigo and bored of my current taste in music. I listen to OSTs instead.