for the love of the game
on being good at continuing
Diary:
I had this epiphany of being good at something, make it sewing, cooking, rubik's cube and other hyperfixation niche interest I collect like trinkets. Sometimes I do what I love just because, with no intention to get better or make a career out of it. It's a passing interest that one day, circle back, finding me on the couch while staring outside. Some interest never left, like writing and reading, it stays and cemented itself as my personalities, my go to activities and how people associate me with. It's not deep when I think about it, but I realized that despite having a bad day, I find a way to continue.
Consistency is just an act of being good at continuing something, make it good habits or pure obsession. As plain as the word is, I never think about it that way. Consistency and routine sounds brutal, very logical way to live one's life with so much restraint masked as discipline. I don't think telling someone to have a disciplined life will help them, but asking them to continue living just for the love of the game might change their perspective. It certainly changed mine, for the record.
It's good to have some sort of predictive analysis based on choices we made, but at the same time, life is not predictable at all. Balancing on living in fear and optimism is one way to have a messy life, and I still do it for the love of the game.
Do I call it unfortunate or being a human?
Updates
Musings:
I went to KL International Book Festival. It left a dent in my pursue and pure happiness in my heart.
Reading Log:
I have trouble understanding Ernest Hemingway's short stories that I felt this is the only way to read difficult book. I should understand nothing, become frustrated and lament over my bruised ego before having enlightened by wikipedia pages and reddit forums. I like that process actually, just a casual (funny) complaint. Good to be humbled down.
Movies:
Funny Games (2007) made me questioned my sanity. Definitely chilling view of sadism and cruelty. And their games weren't funny at all.
I watched Gundam Hathaway Second Movie and thought about the next (final) installment, estimated to be released in 5 years. I have something to look forward to and that was the inspiration for this post. Liking something enough to survive, just because.
