how long does it take to get good?
constantly building, with no result
Diary:
Most of the time, we have to admit that the road to get good is uncertain. Nobody knows how long it takes. Maybe in a few months, a few year or the whole lifetime. I read about Billie Holiday, how she was left with 70 cent in her account at the time of her death. And many artists struggled in their lifetime but their artworks made them practically immortal only after their death. It was unfair and certainly ironic, to be celebrated only after you couldn't indulge in the fruit of your labour. In Ayan Artan's i will not die a hidden gem, I found her arguments fascinating. It's not really about being famous like Bezos or having Musk level of wealth hoarding, it's just not having to think about cutting food portion, or living in the dark to save up bills. It's wanting to have a normal, comfortable life and actually not feeling miserable doing something that might consume our entire life span. I don't think it's too far stretch considering our existence is biological miracle as well. Maybe it will take me another year or another another year, compounding of the continuous cycle of routine and work. I don't know how long it will take for me to get there, but I know I will. Everything is a temporary phase that lead to an end.
Updates
Musings:
Bloated with potential but still going nowhere is a different kind of heartbreak.
Reading Log:
I suspect the book I read is partially written by AI. Or just me taking note on what not to write.
