[13] my dream is too big
Sometimes I think my dream is too big. Although it doesn't sound impossible to achieve, I have this fear of achieving it. I should have done something that I know like working in the IT field. But everyday feels like selling my soul for money. I don't enjoy the work. I just feel relieve that it ends at 6 pm and mourn that it start again at 8 am. It feels like a cycle that never end. I write my stories as the highlight of my life, trying to craft my way out of this situation. Which I don't know if it's a good decision. If it reckless or even plain stupid. I have nothing but an optimistic view of the future, also I don't want to make a stupid decision at the present moment. Whatever happens, I guess, I'll endure it like I always do. This time doing thing that I really wanted for years.
being dramatic as always,
reesa