[38] rot day
I feel like this is related to this post I wrote a few months ago (content repeater indeed lol). The simple term is I create a rot day. For someone like me who feels very jittery if I don't do anything or check any list of the day, I need to trick my own brain that rest is a part of work. I need a day when I do nothing beside usual house chores. I need to rest so that I can use 100% of my energy to work for the next few days straight. Which I come to realize that my consistency is cyclic. Some people can follow the same routine, and it saves their energy from thinking about the work they have to do. While for me, the same routine drains my mood (my first job was data entry and god knows how bad I felt at that time).
I observed my energy distribution and, like many people, I have a lot of energy in the morning and depleted in the evening. However, in my case, a week straight working in this direction makes me so exhausted for the weekend. The weekend is just reserved for work on the house and I often feel frustrated because I don't have energy to do other things. It doesn't fulfill me. If I go in the same direction, I'll break.
in a hamster wheel,
reesa